reasons it didn’t work out:

by cjra

  • i would have probably smothered you anyway
  • i’m still basically afraid of you not approving of me
  • that one time at the party we couldn’t look at each other / too proud / too heavy / i like those moments too much because i like to think it meant something
  • i couldn’t talk to you w/out becoming someone who wasn’t me
  • every time i drive thru the town, i feel this and then that and can’t disconnect this from that
  • at the time, i thought you were better than myself
  • there were hundreds of chances, and i blew them all